January 24, 2015

Little Clark II: 22 weeks

1/20/2015

Hello Graham!

Happy 22 weeks old!  This past week was ok.  Actually your Dad took us all to Astoria for two nights just to get away as a family.  It was wonderful.  We could see and hear the sea lion barking from our room; they sound much like your brother...huh? huh? huh?  We went to Joann Fabrics, walked around town, ate chocolatey pastries, drank hot cocoa, looked through the used bookstore and waited out a storm in our room.  This week you've started working a bit more on those toothbuds and finished getting your eyes all perfect.  We had a little scare this week...I started getting all crampy and you decided to stop moving for several hours.  We went into the hospital to get checked out, but your heartbeat was strong as ever!!  The cramping stopped and we were able to go home.  That was Monday, just a day before you turned 22 weeks.  Needless to say, it make Tuesday so sweet.  Sitting in the hospital bed with your Dad sitting next to me made me realize just how precious the time is that we do have together.  I even gathered the courage to post these letters, and even make a phone call.  We also celebrated your cousin Eliana's first birthday this weekend.  So it has been a full week for us and you.  We may plan another little outing in the coming weeks...maybe the zoo?

Loves and prayers continually,
Mama & Fadda

January 23, 2015

Little Clark II: Weeks 20 & 21

20 weeks - 1/7/2015
My dear son,

I took a photo of your growing home on Tuesday night…the evening we found out you are a boy!  A boy!!  Words cannot express how excited we were/are to find out that you would be a brother, and imagined all the fun/trouble you and James would be getting into together.  We texted all the family, who were also thrilled at the news.  It is remarkable to think that one of the brightest days of our lives could be followed by one of the darkest.  Well baby, we love you so much.  I can feel you moving even with my hands on the outside, especially at night.  But little one, we got a phone call Wednesday saying that we needed to come in because they had some very serious concerning news.  Needless to say I didn’t want to…and cried the entire rest of the day until our appointment.  The doctor that the condition they found is fatal and that you won’t survive long past birth, if that far.  At that I slid off the exam table onto your Dads lap and we wept together, as did the kind doctor who probably hated her job at that moment.  Oh my dear son, we were so looking forward to snuggling you, hearing your laugh, seeing your little face scrunch up when you are hungry, everything.  All that is taken away.  She gave us two options: end my pregnancy now or keep going and have a few weeks to a few months left.  My boy I can’t imagine making that heart of yours stop.  We will let you go when you are done on this earth.  Until then we are most assuredly trying to enjoy your presence with us now.  Sweet baby, your mama and daddy don’t know what to do from here except weep at what is to come.  But we love you, and as always pray for you daily.

Kisses,
Mama & Daddy

21 weeks - 1/14/2014

My dear Graham,

We have gone a week with the bad news.  I’ll admit that there have been many tears on my end of things.  But I absolutely cherish every kick and flutter you make inside.  You’re 21 weeks old as of Tuesday.  I didn't know if I should keep writing or even posting, but I figured it would be more honoring to you if I did.  We had chosen the name Graham Wheeler Clark.  Partly an old Clark family name and partly because we love my brother's initials...GW.  I hope that you like it as much as we do because now you're stuck with it. :)  We know that you’re above weight at 12 oz last week, and surely adding more weight daily.  You usually like to wake up around 9:30 each night and kick around for quite a while.  Last night however, you changed that routine, and I was worried sick.  I felt a few flutters, but nothing like your usual.  This morning you were kicking up a storm, and those fears were laid to rest.  I’m so glad you are still feeling up for another week.  I love you son.  I think that so many do around here.  I think of all the people praying for you and our family, and it astounds me.  It would be a lie to say that I’m doing well…my sad times greatly outnumber the joyous.  I’m trying.  But your brother has taken to pretend to wipe his nose, and then he comes and wipes mine.  Apparently he’s seen me wiping my nose enough to mimic.  Its pretty sweet.  Thanks for your many kicks this week.  I just felt another one right now.  Hoping that my tears don’t upset you.

Take care tonight little one,
Mama

January 2, 2015

52/52

"Pictures of the everyday once a week in 2014."  
I can't believe it is two days into 2015.  I just had to finish up this project as it was one of last year's resolutions!  52 weeks of pictures, documenting the exciting, the mundane and the adorable.  What a fun project.

1.  His first bubble bath...that later made him break out in a rash. :(
 2.  The McCurry side of the family celebrating Christmas.
3.  My favorite ornament on the tree this year.  I'm excited to see a tree with several of these as the years pass.

January 1, 2015

2014 in memories

January
Gorgeous wintery drives, and brisk winter bike rides with my two fellas.

February
A big snow for tromping through which was a great reason to huddle under blankets sipping cocoa.  We also took James to the Portland Zoo which was tons of fun, and he developed the saddest sad face ever this month.  Oh those watery eyes and big lip!

March
Weekly trips to the park for outings, and violets springing up everywhere!  An elimination diet for me which challenged my cooking skills.

April
Discovery that James is allergic to dairy, which totally changes our lives and his for the much better.  We also took a camping trip to the Quinault Rain Forest.

May
Wonderful 80 degree days for being outside in the sun and tulip fields.  Traveling to Indiana for a wedding of two special people.

June
Visiting with family from Indiana, seeing Mt. Rainier, a vegetable garden full of sprouting plants and restarting grad school.

July
Family evening walks, and discovering my brother is extremely allergic to chives.

August
Visiting with family from Alabama, taking a gondola ride at Crystal Mountain, and harvesting the garden.

September
James turns 1!!! Roadtripping for a week to California, and finding out we're expecting another little one!!!

October
I turn 28, chestnut picking, pumpkin patching, and James starts walking!

November
My love turns the big 30!  A huge windstorm, James' first haircut, and gorgeous fall leaves.

December
Chilly afternoon walks, Christmas prep and cheer everywhere, and finishing my Master of Arts in Teaching!

Cheers to 2014, you were great!

December 27, 2014

Little Clark II: 18 weeks

Dec. 22, 2014
Hello little one,

I've been feeling you a great deal this past week.  You little mover and shaker!  You are supposed to be just over five inches long, and flexing all of your joints.  Your ears are fully developed, and I hope you can hear me reading with James.  Do you like hearing "Adventures on Klickitat Island" as much as your brother?  I started getting those progesterone shots this week.  It wasn't as horrible as I was anticipating, which was wonderful!  That being said, your Dad and Grandma were too nervous to give them to me, so I had to find someone a touch braver.  ;)  You've kicked my hunger into high gear.  I still haven't yet fulfilled those yummy dreams of cheesy smart food popcorn, but I am hoping today during Christmas Eve I will get some.  Love you baby!

Mama & Dad